Why is it that we as humans (especially American humans) in general seem unable to "stay on the wagon"? Whether it is with dieting, drinking, smoking, drugs, porn, etc. We get all riled up, and for a good day or two, or even 4-5, we are feet to the floor serious about winning the battle against....whatever it is. I fit into this category. I got myself registered for weight watchers online. It is a great program. I followed it pretty well for about 3-4 weeks, and I lost about 10 pounds. Then, for whatever reason, I fell off the wagon. More like I jumped off. I simply seem to loose interest in filling out the info. online, which leads me to not being careful enough in my food selection, which leads to more/bad food, which leads to growth in the "handles" area. All of this sucks. Then the rationale becomes, "well, if i just get this, or start with this program/video/diet I will be able to actually do it this time."
One positive though--I'm an excellent recommitter. As often as I jump off, I jump back on...only, my vim and vigor for the challenge of overcoming seems to diminish with each successive attempt and failure. That said, I'm much less happy being tubby, so I'll recommit as often as I need to.
I just thought it curious, we humans. I'm sure there has to be some simple reason why this happens. I'll look it up. In the mean time, I'm going to hit the gym on Monday and promptly wash that down with a bacon cheeseburger and broccoli (to make me feel better). That actually is a funny thing to. We will eat like crap, yet we feel that if we chase our grease and fat sandwich with some healthy foods, it all seems to offset. Oh how I wish that were the case. I'd start my meal with a nice pasta with some sort of naughty sauce on it, followed by a loaf of bread from the Macaroni Grill, then I'd slide in some sort of malt or cheesecake--all of which I would close out with a wheat grass shot and a giant celery stock. Man would I be losing weight from all that healthy, offsetting food. Wow are we stupid.
Friday, October 26, 2007
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Public or private/Church dance hilarity.
I've been thinking lately about whether or not I want to make this thing private or should I keep it public. The only reason to make it private is so I could write my deepest darkest secrets on here. The one added bonus I have is that no one really even knows I have this thing anyway so it is basically private as is. Also, I need practice writing things people would like to read anyway. So, I suppose I'll keep it public for now and just write for myself.
I made a comment in church on Sunday about how I felt like a 14-15 year old girl waiting to get asked to dance at a church dance because I was so nervous about standing up and sharing my testimony. When I got home that night I thought about that a little more. I pictured all of the dances I went to as a young man. There were always those girls (and guys for that matter) who you could see freckled around the gym that were watching every dude whom they wanted to get asked to dance by. Note: At that age, getting asked to dance only meant a slow, swaying back and forth kind of thing, and the thought of doing anything more was absolutely petrifying. So, you could see these girls hoping to catch eye contact. Then when a boy began the approach, like 6 or 7 different girls would get all giggly and a little pee would come out because of nerves. A true spectacle I tell you.
It wasn't much better for the boy though. You see the same kind of stuff amongst the men folk. Here's how that went down though. "Hey, are you going to ask Mary to dance?" "I want to but I'm waiting until the next slow song." "Oh. Yeah, me too" So the next dance comes and the dudes ask the ladies they have a crush on to dance and hilarity ensues.
You have a bunch of mid-pubescent boys and girls dancing all close to one another and liking it. The boys on the other hand haven't quite mastered themselves if you catch my drift. So, about 10 seconds into the song you take a look around the dance floor and the picture is the same everywhere you look--every boy is trying to stay as close as they can without "it" touching the girl. Not only does every boy not want that, but they are trying desperately not to look like they are uncomfortably dancing--with there chests as close their dance partners' as possible, and there lower half tilted away ever so slightly. It's like that all across the room. Trying to be smooth, all the while mortified and sure that everyone can see a their uninvited pocket gnome. I've been there and done that, and in fact was called out mid dance by one of my friends. What could I say, I was dancing with an above average girl who I had a major crush on.
Being a youth was just awesome. Anyway, the end of those dances must have just been hell for both parties. The boys were "blue" and the girls had to go and change because of the excitement pee.
I made a comment in church on Sunday about how I felt like a 14-15 year old girl waiting to get asked to dance at a church dance because I was so nervous about standing up and sharing my testimony. When I got home that night I thought about that a little more. I pictured all of the dances I went to as a young man. There were always those girls (and guys for that matter) who you could see freckled around the gym that were watching every dude whom they wanted to get asked to dance by. Note: At that age, getting asked to dance only meant a slow, swaying back and forth kind of thing, and the thought of doing anything more was absolutely petrifying. So, you could see these girls hoping to catch eye contact. Then when a boy began the approach, like 6 or 7 different girls would get all giggly and a little pee would come out because of nerves. A true spectacle I tell you.
It wasn't much better for the boy though. You see the same kind of stuff amongst the men folk. Here's how that went down though. "Hey, are you going to ask Mary to dance?" "I want to but I'm waiting until the next slow song." "Oh. Yeah, me too" So the next dance comes and the dudes ask the ladies they have a crush on to dance and hilarity ensues.
You have a bunch of mid-pubescent boys and girls dancing all close to one another and liking it. The boys on the other hand haven't quite mastered themselves if you catch my drift. So, about 10 seconds into the song you take a look around the dance floor and the picture is the same everywhere you look--every boy is trying to stay as close as they can without "it" touching the girl. Not only does every boy not want that, but they are trying desperately not to look like they are uncomfortably dancing--with there chests as close their dance partners' as possible, and there lower half tilted away ever so slightly. It's like that all across the room. Trying to be smooth, all the while mortified and sure that everyone can see a their uninvited pocket gnome. I've been there and done that, and in fact was called out mid dance by one of my friends. What could I say, I was dancing with an above average girl who I had a major crush on.
Being a youth was just awesome. Anyway, the end of those dances must have just been hell for both parties. The boys were "blue" and the girls had to go and change because of the excitement pee.
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
New Post, new life
Well, what the heck. I haven't done much "blogging" since I started this thingy, but hey, there is always a time to change. Isn't there some song or verse from scripture about this? You know, a time to dance, a time to sing, a time to cry, a time to laugh, a time to waste away time doing a blogspot. I'm pretty sure that was word for word, but don't quote me.
At any rate, life is grand right now. I'm working, I am still happily married, I've two kids, and brace yourselves, I'm....oh wait, I already said that I was working. Well that was all very anti-climactic now wasn't it?
On a more serious note, general conference was this past weekend and although I did not catch all of the talks I should have, I caught some good ones. One in particular that is staying with me is the one by Dallin Oaks about what we fill our days with. He said, "there are good things, and then there are better things, and then there are the best things." He talked about the fact that we can get SO caught up in "good" things, that we often times become overwhelmed by them and never feel like we are getting ahead or accomplishing what we originally set out to do. This can be remedied by changing "good" for "better" or "best". I have tried to implement that since then and I have been very impressed at how much more productive I have felt. I realized that all he said was true. Here is a link to his talk http://broadcast.lds.org/genconf/2007/10/50/GC_2007_10_58_OaksDH__02381_eng_.mp3
I hope that link works. Everyone should listen to this. It was great. Anyway, I think I'll take the time a little more to write down some of the events of the day so that I will at least have something written down for my posterity. Maybe one day I will print these out and put them into a book or something.
Later.
At any rate, life is grand right now. I'm working, I am still happily married, I've two kids, and brace yourselves, I'm....oh wait, I already said that I was working. Well that was all very anti-climactic now wasn't it?
On a more serious note, general conference was this past weekend and although I did not catch all of the talks I should have, I caught some good ones. One in particular that is staying with me is the one by Dallin Oaks about what we fill our days with. He said, "there are good things, and then there are better things, and then there are the best things." He talked about the fact that we can get SO caught up in "good" things, that we often times become overwhelmed by them and never feel like we are getting ahead or accomplishing what we originally set out to do. This can be remedied by changing "good" for "better" or "best". I have tried to implement that since then and I have been very impressed at how much more productive I have felt. I realized that all he said was true. Here is a link to his talk http://broadcast.lds.org/genconf/2007/10/50/GC_2007_10_58_OaksDH__02381_eng_.mp3
I hope that link works. Everyone should listen to this. It was great. Anyway, I think I'll take the time a little more to write down some of the events of the day so that I will at least have something written down for my posterity. Maybe one day I will print these out and put them into a book or something.
Later.
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